Day two of my mini retreat and I find it has been a day of gathering in the harvest of my life’s trainings, desires and dreams. Today I have created a Facebook page for my new psychotherapy practice: Cambridge Integrative Psychotherapy Services and have published it. The next thing on the agenda, later this week, is a website… I can’t imagine it will be as easyI
I have also gathered some of Norfolk’s divine hedgerow blackberries to take home tomorrow. I am so pleased with the coming back to myself that I have managed in two days. There is a clarity which has come from being courageous like never before, from being overwhelmed too many times, from actually saying YES to the bit of me which craves solitude and silence. Nothing is ever truly silent as the earth hums and has a pulse of its own as do we ….. but rarely do we hear our own sounds….. breaking away from the world, we begin to hear before we have learned to listen. It’s in the hearing that we become curious and only then do most of us truly listen to ourselves.
The irony is of course…. so often, when we do listen to what is right for us, others become disturbed. This creates havoc for us at our core, if we are not strong enough to hold our ground over what is right for us. Therefore, we must listen before a thief runs away with our sense of self.
Picking blackberries takes me back to happy times…. blackberrying with mother where the sense of self was ‘safely’ entwined with hers….. even that was Maya’s work – the veils of illusion….. no one can give us the peace and security we dearly crave …… except perhaps when we experience the spiritual act of gathering blackberries, alone.
Savouring my last few hours here, I am closing down my computer and phone distractions and retreat back into stillness.